my baby bolster is most important during bed time. =)
driving hasn't been that thrilling anymore now. its just a pain.
plus i nearly killed Jessica in the process yesterday.
all thanks to khy.
must be there by 12 ar!!
don't be late!!
=/
ever since Monday, after changing numbers and all, i have lived a rather quite week
not to say i am happy nor sad but the feeling is peaceful.
EXCEPT for one annoying little pig whom I've never seen for more then 10 times this year happen to be around almost every other day this week. Thanks =)
since i haven't been attending school, i have so much time on hand
I've done some of my studies and thinking.
If some one mistreats me, doesn't mean that i have to mistreat the person as well. or maybe i have mistreated the person already before and i would be sorry. but getting back at the person would be the last thing i would want on my to do list.
but nevertheless the thought of getting back at the person is always going to be there because after all i am only human. then i think for myself. would i be any happier getting back at the person? the answer is no. there would be the slightest bit of joy at the spur of the moment but in the long run i would live to regret what i have done. why would i want some one else to grovel in pain just like me if i were to be mistreated,especially the ones i love. because i think only the ones i love are capable of mistreating me and leaving an impact. i don't think any tom dick or harry could mistreat me and make me feel the slightest bit of pain. what ever it is i think i would forgive. I'm sure many would wonder how is it possible to forgive some one who has mistreated you. the only answer lies in your heart. to me forgiveness is the start of everything. yes i would be sad and crushed but at least i know I'll be fine, i wouldn't want to turn into an angry person. but anger is the best remedy to sadness and being crushed, it makes you forget and only hate. people say hating is easier than being sad. what do you think? i honestly think it is true, but why would i want to hate? sadness will go away it just takes some time,hatred wouldn't. to me forgiving is easier, but it doesn't mean after forgiving someone i am able to forget what has happened. i wish i could. then i don't think the word haunted would exists. If some one were to mistreat me, i wouldn't know how to be able to continue to be friends with the person at that time. or how to face the person again. although maybe acting would be easy but i think i wouldn't want to feel hurt anymore. so normally i think i would disappear from the person's world for sometime.as much as i want to i wouldn't allow myself to know anything about the person, i would avoid all types of communication which includes reading the persons blog and deleting the person's contact and many many more. yes i choose to live in a shell while the person enjoys their life.i wouldn't hope the worse for the person but the best.but it does help if the person cared. because everyone deserves to be happy! =] don't you think the world would be better if everyone were to be happy? well at least in my world i want everyone to be happy. so if you were to mistreat me give me some time out OK. =]
everything i mentioned above was just what i think. =P hahahaha.
this shows the time wasted when i should be studying.
aaarrrgghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
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