right before this i kept thinking how come i always feel bad when im not in the wrong,
why do i let people mess with my mind when i know that i have done nothing to deserve this.
why do i keep letting people hurt me if i know already that they would?
come to think of it im pretty stupid for letting anyone do that to me.
i dont deserve such a thing.
and i will never treat a person they way i was treated.
i received just one msg today which actually disturbed me so much.
i dont think i have done anything wrong and why should i be questioned ?
i should be the one questioning because you have never given me all the answers.
and its not my duty to find out the answers.
the answer is simply you're not a Gentlement.
and Ping is right,i should be thank you
you showed me that there are guys like you out in this world,
before i met you i didnt know what the outside world was like,
i use to think that everyone is pure nice,and even the worse is no where near what you are like.
yes i have really forgiven you,but like an elephant i dont forget.
you may be who you are now, or all this while you have been like that but im who i am.
all the things i have done is only for the better of you.i hope one day you'll realise.
non to harm you.i have never tried to stop you from doing the things you love.
i should be hating you at this very moment but what is the point?
i still care about you, and not because i want you back but its just because i care.
i always thought that it was my fault,everything also was because of me but some one made me realise. its not because of me. if you cant love me for who i am than what can i say?
at least i know i loved you for who you are.
i've let you in my heart but you broke it.
you left me at the peak point,but i still found it in my heart to forgive you.
people speak all sorts of things about you
till a certain extend its true,
but i know that the one part i fell in love with was a true side of you.
mayb you dont know it yet but you'll find out soon.
she has said that when we were together you were constantly being something you're not.
mayb she is right mayb she is wrong,if you were so unhappy we should have never been together.i would never know either.
only you know it yourself.
the pass is the pass. hopefully one day you'll know how much you meant to me.
you have really hurt my feelings.
and she told me that you have moved on and i believe so.
and i always pray that you'll be happy.
being whatever you want to be.
who ever you are, i dont think you'll ever come across this.
but this is just how i really feel.
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