A New Turning

i received a letter and it wrote,
"16,girl from 5 cempaka,
4th row from the front,
2nd row in the lab,
1st row in our hearts,47301,Princess lane."

I have decided i wouldn't live my life how it was yesterday anymore.
my tears gland are drying up and my heart is being glued back by the people i love.
why make them worry over me anymore?
life has more to offer than a broken heart.

my life has took a whole new turning lately.
sometimes i cant help but keep asking why why why???
but i guess God has a plan for everything.
although sometimes my heart still aches and but thats life.
what would life be without some challenges??

i know i have bumped in to one of life's greatest miseries and i am/was miserable.
but well, life has got to go on.SPM is on its way.
i have found it in my heart to forgive but good memories will stay forever.
bad memories just leave a scar in this heart.
i guess i have shut out what life can do to hurt me.

its stupid,i know but time will heal and thats when i'll let everything return to normal.
i wouldnt know when would it all go away,mayb a week,2 weeks , 3 months, 4 years??
i definately do not have time now,what has been disturbing me lately has left a great impact on my life.no eating,no sleeping,crying,throwing up,scared of what life has to offer, no studying.
i dont want to live like that anymore.
i dont want people that love me to worry about me anymore.

once i loved but was broken but now im loved again.
i still love but things will never be the same again.
if he thought that my life would be better without him,im really disappointed.
if he found some one that could give him more than i could ever give.im happy for him,
if he is down,i wish he could cheer up again,
if his life is turning around,i cant do anything than watch from a far and pray it takes a good turning.