All in a day

yesterday was horrible for me.
in school the atmosphere was really gloomy because of late Victor.
and when i was walking home,
i saw some one that looks so alike to Victor.
i almost called him but then i remembered that his gone.. =[ sigh

the sadness piles up as the days goes by about Victor's passing.
i really wish that it was all an April fool's joke.
sigh =[
i really cant stop thinking about it,untill i hit a table.
now my waist is injured.=[
sigh.

last night something was bugging me so badly.
i tried so hard but then it was useless.
im so afraid of being hurt anymore.
sigh.
and the whole night i was waiting for something that didnt happen.
where were you when i needed you.
you promised that you will be there for me.=(
i dont know what to do anymore.
i cant live like this anymore.
the sadness is draining me out. sighh