nothing seems enough..

what a day i had today.. it was a great day just to let you all know.. aih.. couldnt sleep at night bacause of my cough and had to force myself to go to school for the sake of copying my physics test! haha.. well i really suffered in school today... kept coughing.. God let the cough stop. i'll do anything to make it go away.. im so tired of life today.. haih..

i just realised how peaceful the lab table would be without ming..his really a distraction but his still the best.. =] after school came home sat on the chair and guess what i fell asleep for half an hour! yess!! finally sleep!! although its short but yea i need it.. but i guess i wasnt really a god time to fll asleep. it was te only time i have left to msg vince since he was going to the camp at 2.30 and he cant use his phone there.. stupid camp. i miss him like mad now.. especially at this time when no one understands me.. haih..

had an arguement with pam.. the person i treat most as my sister.. put up with her all the time just to not hurt her feelings.. but i guess that was all put to waste..today isnt a really sister day.. just another person i thought would understand what i have done,didnt. and i was yet to be blame for not doing something i already did but did not work out.. my heart breaks at the corner knowing that there isnt anyone i can rely on anymore..vincent's not here.. im all alone.. wish to go some where peacefull where everyone is blameless and sinless..im sure the grass is greener over the other side.. only God knows what im going through now.. being sick is enough i cant take anymore of this.. pls pls pls take me to a peaceful place i beg of you..

why must iit be like that? ive tried my very best to give all of you whatever you wanted.. mayb im not fit for this.. and mayb thats true.. im not! sometimes knowing that you are not fit for the job hurts your heart.. i guess someone would be doing better in my shoes.. i dont deserve this pair of shoes and i know you all think so.. i'll give it up as soon as i can..iits not easy being in this pair of shoes.. i should have never gotten this shoes then i would have never found out that my sisters didnt understand me enough.. just take me awaaaaaaaayyyy where the place is peaceful i beg..

i miss vincent so much.. *sob sob* =[